Bifcake Chronicles: Same Sh*t, Different Toilet

What I have been going through the past 4-5 weeks is similar to what one experiences in a physically abusive relationship.

Your partner hits you.
They see you're hurt.
They apologize, say they will do better
Then the following week, you're watching what you say or do so you don't provoke him
Yet, your partner hits you again
They see you're hurt.
They apologize, say they will do better.
Then the following week, you're watching what you say or do so you don't provoke him
Yet...

Replace those hits with insecurities projected on to you. For weeks I have been walking on eggshells as I try to be there for someone who is adjusting to life. I knew what was I getting myself into, however I was secure enough in myself to handle it. However, me being secure couldn't stop those "hits" though. No matter how much I compromised...it was never enough.

So, he says "Goodbye forever," however I'm supposed to respond to texts and phone calls with the same empty ass apology, afterwards? I should consider at least being friends with someone who said he didn't want to be my friend? Continue to be there for someone who doesn't fully appreciate all that I, along with everyone else who cares, had done for him?

Why would I want to go back to that? What makes he or anyone else thinks he deserves me as a friend right now...or ever again?

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results.

I'm back to being sane.

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